Friday, January 1, 2016

Hey, 2016.

Here we are... a New Year.
Now I don't know about ya'll, but my life has been a rollecoaster this past year.
Thankfully, with more goods than bads.
 
I started living again- fully- for all intents and purposes after finding out in November I had the C word, then not having the C word, and then my oncologist slicing out a 5cm Tumor from my cervix. Yep, just as painful as it sounds. That was a 2 month healing process and I couldn't even enjoy the finer goods in life. I was in too much pain. A lot of prayers went into that healing. I am forever thankful for the ones that sent me all the good vibes and feels a girl could ever possibly need or want.
 
Yet, that journey is not over quite yet.
But I continue to pray that it will be, one day. 
Fingers crossed.
 
I got married.  
Something I SWORE I would NEVER do again.
I found my soul mate a year and some odd months ago.  
(and I didn't believe those existed anymore, kinda like unicorns.)
I am now the proud new owner of a Stud of a Husband and 3 gorgeous (I hate this word) Step-Children.
 
When I say that my world, my life, and my heart are full...
Believe me.
For the first time in the longest time, it is genuinely full.
 
I went 9 years searching for my little sister, Destiny.
I found her 9 years later on Facebook.
Thank God for Social Media.
I never thought I would ever hear myself say that...
Because without this generation and its super cool social media sites-
I would have never laid eyes on one of the most precious of jewels God had created ever again.
And today- she's my big little sister of a best friend.
Just her presence in our lives has filled it with hope, love, and completeness.
 
For years I wondered if I'd ever be truly happy again.
I catch myself wondering what I ever did to deserve this much love and happiness.
I still think from time to time when any of my 5 children come in for a hug or say an I love you or when Mike gives me that knowing look that says a thousands words to my soul...
 Someone pinch me.
IS THIS REAL LIFE??
 
Maybe God does answer prayers.
I'm throwing my bet on the table with that in mind.
I'm quite thankful for the ones he didn't answer...
Whew.
 
 And then I realize if he heard me just once...
That maybe, somehow, he saw two similar hearts and thought it would be fun to make us endure some tribulation and trials before there could actually be an us.
 
But let me tell you-
 
I would wait another, for what seemed like a thousand years, again-
to have the love and happiness I share with Michael and our 5 combined.
 
I met my best friend.
My Insta is quite nauseating. My facebook, GAG.
My now blog....
I wanna Tom Cruise on Oprah's couch, kinda shout it from the rooftops.
That's just how in love and happy I am.
 
Do not get me wrong, here.
My life is not perfect.
I don't claim to have the perfect marriage, be a perfect parent, or person in general.
But my happiness is genuine.
Like all things- nothing is perfect..
But I'm going to go on a long shot and say-
My life is my own definition of perfect.
 
I have everything I need and more.
God is for the first time in a very long time, #1 in my life again.
 
2015 taught me a lot of things.
 
 I started to see the in between grey area that no one really likes to talk about.
BEING REAL.
I realized first hand that just because you have the best interest in your heart for someone-
doesn't mean they have the best of yours in heart.
It's sad, but most people are only out for themselves.
 
I figured out- I don't need those people in my life.
And that has been tough lesson to learn.
Honestly, my life is twenty times better without them.
I've accepted that people will lie and laugh at your expense,
only to make themselves feel better about their own insecurities and issues.
Is it fair? No. Is it pretty? Hell No.
 
But it has helped me get rid of the baggage in my life.
Taught me who I needed and who I didn't.
I'm glad my circle is smaller. My people are amazing.
Just like that, moving along...
 
Together, Mike and I have numerous "resolutions" I guess you would say, that we plan on putting into works. This year is going to be one of the best for our little big fam of 7. I just know it.
I go into 2016 with even more hope and faith than last year.
       VIA
 Because with God, All things are POSSIBLE.
 
Happy New Years, 
Chrystal Louise

No comments:

Post a Comment